Oh Baby!

So I cleverly titled this blog Oh baby because I have been having sex with one of my friends. On this particular night after sex he asked me was I using birth control. This made my brain send all the nerve signals allowing me to sit up like I was rising from the dead.

Now before I continue, I'd like to say that I am not a stoopid girl. I do enjoy sex but I am not fond of the risks of having children or contracting an STD(I). I make sure a condom is worn when I am having sex. There has been times when I had been really risky and had sex without a condom. But I made sure that he pulled out before he came. So wen this guy tells me this I was a bit thrown off.

I am a bitch. I usually behave or cut back on the behavior part but this guy has never seen me angry. Or even heard me curse before. We wore a condom (like we always do) so why would he ask that? I felt and heard the condom. He didnt take it off but if he did....

Was he intentionally trying to get me pregnant I thought as I went home. If I was to get pregnant now, I would seriously get an abortion and never talk to him again. That shit isnt cool with me. If I wanted to be a young mom then I woulda did it when I was 15. But I seriously dont wanna have kids or take care of them right now in my life.

Then his lame ass. He dropped outta skool wen he was in the 9th grade, he doesn't work, and he lives with his mom. He can't provide anything. He can try and spend his life scrapping by to support a child but I dont wanna go thru that either.

In the end all I know is that my period better come every month or not only will he meet and loose another side of me but his wont get the kid he tried to be slick and knock me up with. Cuz i have too many dreams and goals to achieve.