Getting to know my mom

SO...


I'm in the process of gaining an understanding of my mom. For a very long time I didn't get my mom. She was and still is an extreme liar. It as if she has been a long time user of hard drugs. I'm talkin hard as in cocaine and other shit. This is weird, provided she always has something cynical to say about hard users.

I've always known her to lie about things that make her seem like she is a saint. But There is I have found out, it scares me to want to learn anymore. Its not my business cuz like me, she's a grown ass woman. Knowing anything new won't change anything. It will only help me understand her methods and why she is the way she is.

I HAVE learned so far that she has...Carck-head tendencies, she breaks up with her boyfriend then regrets it ASAP, She has late night hook ups and doesn't come home sometimes. There is more but SMH.

So now I have to pretty much read all the signs to see what kinda person she really is. My entire life has kinda been a lie and she feels no remorse about it at all. It's like she's numb. Who the hell raised me?! Thank you god for giving me common sense. Without it, I would be a next generation repeat.

Wish me luck on the quest